Insights Gained through Loss

As previously mentioned a couple weeks ago my relationship.  At the time this felt like a traumatic loss and I was quite sad. With some time I have a couple insights I would like to share that I have gained through this loss.

  1.  I was making many sacrifices I didn’t realize were hurting me.
    • I have felt light and happy.  I have a sense of ease and confidence. EXCITEMENT for the future.  I have realized how much of myself I was forced to hide and to give up in order to maintain my relationship.  I am allowed to be silly, talkative, do things my own way, have fun, HOPE FOR THE FUTURE.
  2. No one Died.
    • While it felt like I had to say goodbye to my best friend and never hear from him or see him again. I realized, after a grocery store bump in, that we are still friends and still get along. There is no reason for the fun inside jokes and happy times to end. All the pressure of the relationship presented has been lifted and a friendship can now be formed.

What are three thoughts that made you smile today?

Taking a trip to ski with friends.

Having dinner with my kids and some other family friends.

Planning a mountain bike trip with a friend!

10 Big Dreams that Haven’t Come True Yet!

  1. Being desired and valued in person and professional life.
  2. Travel for/with work
  3. Marrying my Soulmate in the forest with my kids being very involved.
  4. Having a Cabin in Mccall
  5. Exceed my current level at climbing. Complete V4s and 5s regularly.
  6. Get a Dog
  7. Feel content and happy to be home and do yard work.
  8.  Have my writing published
  9. Be recognized
  10. Travel with my kids (Hawaii)

Everything has Changed

Two weeks ago my relationship ended. We were together for 4 wonderful years. Its a bummer but I am doing well. I will not be sharing details on a public forum out of respect. I will say that my goals are in flux and my focus is changing.  While I am still dedicated to helping others and to health and fitness.]

I am still taking courses and getting my Health/Life coach certification. As well as while I am learning to be alone again and I am going to focus on myself and children. I can’t promise regular posts for a while and I am not sure how the blog will change but I know the outcome is going to be very positive. I will get back to fitness, nutrition, relationships, parenting, budgeting, organizing, minimizing and all my other favorite topics to explore.

The day we parted I had an unrelated call with my health/life coach. It was my first session in a 90 day transformation I was and still am very excited to be on. My goals and focus for the transformation have changed as well.  For now I am going to focus on the transformation.

Thanks for all your kind words of support. This community means a lot to me.  One woman in particular was so kind to let me email her a stream of consciousness sad rambling emotional vomit and I felt so much better tonight reading her reply.  What a nice stranger and new friend. Thank you Shelley.

5 things that make ME smile

  1. When my kids have real and sincere belly laughs at their own laughs.
  2. Being in the forest, smelling the forest duff, listening to the wind in trees, watching the trail curve ahead of me. 
  3. Happy calls and texts with good news from my closest girlfriends.
  4. When cats purr really loud.
  5. Garden walks and hot tea with my closest Aunt.